Journal: Stress - Time to Fight!

I'm combating some pretty significant stressors at the moment: financial > emotional > physical.

I have a plan in place as I have known, or suspected, Aaron's income could stop completely for a while now. (I had my suspicions in December.) I have a new client with my copy writing side-gig and am in the running for a promotion at work (started that conversation in December in preparation for those financial issues). I should hear back on the latter next Tuesday.

I am fighting. For a while now, probably since mid-February, I was fighting myself instead of FOR myself. Now, I want to fight for my health and combat the stress I have been feeling. I know first-hand how much better I feel when I eat well, get enough sleep, and keep my happy hormones up in DWYLT fashion.

I have a history of taking on too much at once and getting overwhelmed, so I am trying to keep getting back on track as simple as possible. Today went well, food-wise. Breakfast: grass-fed cream top yogurt with fresh strawberries, grassfed beef steak and rice for lunch, Italian Wedding Soup for dinner (made with bison meatballs). I tolerate non-conventional dairy well, but will be leaning away from dairy, rice and potatoes soon as I try to get back to my pre-wedding measurements.

I feel like the last year and a half has been blow after blow of issues and stress. Moving, traveling, new job, income loss, family stress and uncertainty have left me...free falling. 

When my husband and I first talked about the future, it was so clear-cut. Get married. Pay off debt. Start a family. We're stuck in phase 2 and it looks like phase 3 is another 3-4 years down the road as Aaron is going back to school. The end goal is me staying home with kiddos and working part time from home, if needed. I honestly thought I'd be a mom by now and I think I'm really sad about that too.

I'm ready to take a big, deep breath, and start again. To take my time bricking good habits into place. I feel like my internal house has been broken and it's time to rebuild a better, stronger house. One that can handle the stress and responsibility of kids, especially.

Italian Wedding Soup from Meals Made Simple